.:Private Conversations for Rean & Dazai:.

[reanbeans]

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week 2 post trial

[reanbeans]

[ Dealing with what they had was A Lot.

But the end result of that trial made Rean more anxious, antsy, and worried more than ever. Particularly the reveal about curses.

What was he going to do if...?

He'll shake his head, heading back into his room, crossing the clergy room halls. He needed time to collect himself...

Though, he'll pause. Looking around - maybe he should visit Dazai's room? Or was he in Rean's...? ]

[deadlygoals]

[ Rean will see his door is already opened a crack, so that should probably answer that. Dazai sitting on the edge of the bed. His coat is off, and he's making sure his bandages are all in place by touching in places.

Looking up to give the usual impish look at he spots him because he knows he helped himself inside. ]

Hey~ I decided to wait for you.

[reanbeans]

Dazai...it's good to see you.

[ He looked relieved, though it melts into a semi-worried expression, before just somewhere still that and weariness. ]

How're you doing after all of that?

[ He'll close the door and lock it as he stepped in. ]

[deadlygoals]

[ Did he think Dazai would avoid him or something else? He's already trying to read those expressions. ]

I'm fine~ Just a little tired. That went on longer than it should have.

[ Looking at the door. ]

Making sure no one disturbs us?

[ There's a teasing note to his voice. ]

[reanbeans]

[ It's selfish but he didn't want to be alone for a little bit, before he went to check on the others. ]

Mm, I agree.

[ He'll almost smile at the teasing, if it weren't for what he was about to bring up. ]

As always you're messing around, but...there was something I wanted to talk to you about. It's about what I saw at the trial.

[deadlygoals]

Maybe we can take a nap?

[ He already knows Rean will take it similarly as he did with the sleeping together comment in trial.

Dazai can already guess what Rean is going to bring up just from his expression alone. ]

The strip searches?

[reanbeans]

That sounds nice, but I do have to check up on the others.

[ Rean was a little tired, but he was a bit of a workaholic, rip. ]

...Yes, that's right.

I'm sorry to ask about something so personal, but I really couldn't ignore anything like that. It's alright if you don't want to talk about it either, and in that case, I want to tell you that I'm always here if you need anything, Dazai.

1/2

[deadlygoals]

[ Someone needs to teach him how to be lazy. ]

Maybe later then.

[ Usually when the subject of his injuries come up, people tend to just roll with whatever excuses he provides and don't try to offer help. Not even his friends have tried to reach out to offer a lifeline. There's always been a respectful space there.

Rean is actually offering to help. Dazai knows it's probably because he's a good guy and an instructor, but it still is something he's not used to. His eyes are widen and he's quiet for a moment. ]

suicide talk

[deadlygoals]

[ Then his expression softens ]

You've already seen that they are old scars. I haven't been actively trying to kill myself for a while.

[ Just don't ask about passively ]

week 3, wednesday post meeting

[reanbeans]

[ Rean still went ahead to prepare some dinner for both of them to share privately in their room. If only because Dazai apologized.

He didn't look pleased, by the by, but he sure looked like he had a few things he wanted to say in light of what happened.

Hope you're prepared, Dazai because he's launching straight in. ]

I think we're lucky that didn't go as bad as I thought it might've. But, one thing I think we might need to address is how the others will think of you right now. Did you...at least give that some thought? Or did you think that didn't matter?

[deadlygoals]

[ His eyes widen for a moment. He was prepared for a lecture, but maybe one about how he needs to quit his jokes or actually communicate better.

He didn't expect Rean's first concern was what others would think of him. He'll look at him for a moment longer before closing his eye. ]

I did give it some thought, but I also didn't think it would change their opinion that much. They already expect me to be a fool and a criminal.

[ He's not really popular, just occasionally useful. ]

[reanbeans]

[ Oh Dazai, you are not off the hook for that either.

But yeah, of course it was. ]

They think of you as a fool and a criminal, maybe. But not one who would've brought their captor willingly into the group without a warning - if I had known he was being personally invited as opposed to barging in, I think I might've suggested you tell everyone beforehand.

[ It was essentially just last minute he was told though but Rean would've made the effort himself even. ]

So something for the future:

Your communication needs work, and there was a lot of trust lost that I don't think you even knew you had in the first place.

...And it might be good if you tried to restrain how far you take your jokes for awhile. There's a lot I'm willing to overlook, but in light of what happened, I don't want everyone to be talking about my love life because of it. We're in a dangerous situation and that's the last thing that needs to be the focus of anyone.

[deadlygoals]

[ He's quiet for a moment, already thinking about a lecture he heard from Ango not that long ago about how he needs to not make any more enemies here. ]

You're a little like him. A little like both of them.

[ He'll meet his gaze to show him he really means this next part... ]

I'll work on communicating better.

[ He'll try working on regaining some of that trust, but he can't make any promises there.

At the last thing, he'll curl a hand under his chin as he looks away. ]

I do want to ask about what Rembrandt said.

[reanbeans]

Both of them?

[ But, he'll look at least a little relieved when the other says those next words while meeting his gaze. That at least boded well.

For the other part, Rean frowned a little, but - ]

What do you mean? What did he say?

[deadlygoals]

Odasaku and Ango.

[ Which Ango does he even mean. Who knows.

He's going to peek at what Rean has made them for dinner instead of looking at him. This is one of those... trickier moments where he knows as soon as he says it, it'll either sound like he's making more jokes or sound like he's genuinely interested. There's also the whole wanting to beat something versus not wanting to suffer more by chasing after something. He's made mistakes. ]

That I have competition.

1/???

[reanbeans]

I don't believe I've heard you mention Odasaku before.

[ Rean has made them CURRY

Okay no, just kidding, he wasn't that kind of petty person. He just made some chicken and mashed potatoes.

...Anyway, he wasn't expecting him to say that right out of the blue. ]

What do you mean?

2/2

[reanbeans]

[ ????

Then that moment where Rean flashbacked to the meeting happened and his love life was brought up where the man mentioned he had competition—because of Dazai's badly timed joke, which Rean had presumed was to conceal what Dazai had written. ]

...I—

[ Words failed Rean there, because today was A Lot and the last thing he wanted to think about was Rembrandt's words in which he thought he was clearly trolling. Because as far as he was concerned there was nothing more to it. ]

—I'm not even looking at anyone right now, I can't. Not at a time like this...so I don't really know what he was talking about. He was likely just joking around.

[deadlygoals]

[ If Rean made curry, he would have eaten it while looking Rean in the eyes. He would be crying and regretting it like the salt coffee, but he would have eaten it all.

It's Rembrandt. He might troll lightly, but he wouldn't lie about something like that. ]

It means someone probably has a crush on you. [ A pause ] And Rembrandt knows a lot more about everyone than he lets on.

[ And with that, he'll start digging in to the food. ]

Odasaku is the only good guy in the mafia.

Week 3 post invest (I'm starting here cause dw is a butt)

[deadlygoals]

[ Rean will hear the tell-tale signs of the knob to his door being messed with. There's a click as it unlocks, and then the door will swing open. Dazai is there, giving something like a fond look when he sees him. Holding out his hand. ]

I thought I would find you in here. Accompany me to lunch?

[reanbeans]

[ Rean was holding Olivert's letter and his eyes were a little wet. It's fine. ]

...Are you sure you want me to come with you to lunch like this?

[deadlygoals]

[ It's still odd to see someone sad like this. He'll leave the door open as he steps in. Lifting his hand to brush his thumb against Rean's cheek in a feather light touch before dropping it away. ]

Yeah, I do. We need to eat before the trial, right?

[reanbeans]

[ He didn't even flinch, he didn't care so much about the casual touch...or anything right now. He was having an emotional moment, okay. ]

You're right. I'll make you something to eat.

[ He'll rise and place the letter in his pocket. ]

Should we head to the kitchen?

[deadlygoals]

[ He's not going to take advantage of what he can probably get away with right now. ]

We can go to the Milk Bar. There's vegetables there.

[ For all of those soups. He does hold out his hand for the other. ]

[reanbeans]

[ +10 points on Dazai for that!

Rean could almost smile when the other mentioned vegetables, his lip even quirking upwards for a second, but it didn't happen because, y'know. ]

...Feel like eating healthy?

[ Rean moved closer to Dazai, and because of all the things running through his head he almost didn't notice the hand. His focus was shot for a little while.

But, hesitantly he'll grab it and allow Dazai to lead the way. ]

[deadlygoals]

I know you'll try to stick it in there anyways~

[ Once his hand is taken, he'll move his fingers in-between each of Rean's to lace their hands together. Hugging is still new, just like being genuinely affectionate, so this is an attempt to offer something more solid and warm.

He can fill the quiet in with facts about tofu if Rean doesn't feel up to talking as they make their way out of the clergy housing and to the Milk Bar.]